Yeah, I'm bitter.  I get that.  I've been much better in the recent years as opposed to when I was numbering the consecutive guys that I was interested in but who weren't interested in me (it got up to seven, if you're curious), but of course I still have my issues. 

 

One of those issues is with guys who flake or who don't seem to treat my time as important.  I met a guy online a few weeks ago who had an emergency 2-week trip overseas.  During those two weeks, we chatted pretty much daily online and it was my expectation that we'd be meeting very shortly after he got into town.  Well, I haven't heard from him in four days and he's been back in town for almost three.  I'd invited him to take my extra ticket to "Wicked" tomorrow night, assuming that it would be our second or third date, and I don't even have his phone number to call him and see if he's still interested and he hasn't responded to the email I sent last night.  I'd put a hold on trying to find a backup date to give him plenty of time, but today I decided to try to find someone else to go with.  Unfortunately, all the usual suspects are busy.  So it looks like I'll have an evening out by myself, an $80 theater ticket wasted, and a guy who didn't care enough to call before the show that I told him about last week (and to whom I had mentioned my issues around flakes) that I have to decide whether to forgive or not. 

 

Yeah, I get it, I overreact; I have an irrational disappointment and rage when people stand me up.  I'm sometimes passive-aggressive in that I decide not to call or write to guys specifically to see if they'll flake on me--and of course, most of them do  (and, of course, this post is also a passive-aggressive attempt at eliciting sympathy from most of you and redemption from one of you).  But I tried this time to put that aside.  I tried to work through my anger and my disappointment.  I tried to write him and call him.  Chances are that he has valid reasons for not writing in four days, but I'm not sure that those reasons will be enough for me.  Is that wrong?

 

I guess he still has about 20 hours to get back to me before I fly solo tomorrow night, so maybe this post is premature.  But maybe it helps explain some of my bitterness to those who have noticed it.  It's just a sample of what usually happens to me when I meet a guy I'm interested in.